Waiting for the sunrise

Waiting for the sunrise, alone.

Mie etank, menu praktis sahur ala kosan

Menu praktis sahur dikala sendiri dan malas makan ala-ala anak kosan pasti sedang laris dicari jomblowan jomblowati sejagad di bulan Ramadhan ini. Alih-alih ke warteg mending buat sendiri, daripada dibegal dijalan. Menu praktis ini barusan coba saya buat, menemani sahur hari kedua Ramadhan edisi 2018. Rasanya? Enaklah! Apalagi sedang lapar-laparnya. Praktis, sekitar 5 menit saja bikinnya dengan cucian piring minimalis karena wajan panci berfungsi juga sebagai piring. Mau coba bikin sendiri? Berikut ini tahapan pemilu cara membuatnya.

Pertama dan utama, didihkan segelas air, rebus 2 butir telur sampai setengah matang. Orak-arik atau biarkan utus sesuai selera anda soalnya perkara sepele begini kadang bikin bad mood. Masukkan 1 bungkus mie instan selama 30 detik, mienya saja jangan bungkusnya. Bolak-balik mie agar merata matangnya. Tambahkan sayuran sesuai selera anda, disini saya tambahkan kol dan seledri. Aduk merata selama 20 detik. Matikan api, hidupkan mantan (eh), masukkan bumbu default, tambahkan sedikit kecap manis semanis kamu, iris tipis cabe rawit sebanyak yang anda sanggup, disini saya iris 3 cabe rawit saja karena 3 itu saja saya sanggup kalau 5 kebanyakan kalau 4 tidak direkomendasikan, konon Tuhan menyukai angka ganjil dan ada mitos kalau jumlah cabe rawit mempengaruhi derajat kepedasan, ganjil lebih pedas daripada genap walaupun genapnya lebih banyak. Contohnya, 3 cabe rawit lebih pedas daripada 4 cabe rawit. Entahlah. Tambahkan kacang. Tunggu sampai panci dingin, mie etank siap dihidangkan, dimakan sak wajan-wajane.

Oh iya, etank itu pelesetan dari setan, biar namanya Mie Etank kedengaran keren saja. Selamat menikmati, siapkan air putih yang banyak dan siap-siap bolak-balik toilet.

Way down here without you

I've got a reason to be sad.
And I've got a reason to feel like I've been had.
But I would give most anything. to see you smile at me again.
I don't know (since you've gone)
I don't know (since you've been gone) what I'm supposed to do.
Way down here without you.
I don't know (since you've gone)
I don't know (since you've been gone) what I'm supposed to do
Way down here without you.

I know you won't be coming home.
And it makes me feel so afraid of the unknown.
But I would give most anything. to see you smile at me again.
I don't know (since you've gone)
I don't know (since you've been gone) what I'm supposed to do
Way down here without you.
I don't know (since you've gone)
I don't know (since you've been gone) what I'm supposed to do
Way down here without you.

You still mean a lot to me, yeah.
You still mean a lot to me.
More than a memory to me, yeah.
More than a memory to me.

 

 

The last letter

I am damaged from the inside. The depression that has been slowly eating away at me has completely swallowed me, and I couldn't win over it.
I hated myself. I tried to hold on to breaking memories and yelled at myself to get a grip, but there was no answer.
If I can't clear my breath, it's better to stop.
I asked myself who can take care of myself.
It's only me.
I was alone.
It's easy to say I'll end things.
It's hard to end things.
I lived all this time because of that difficulty.
They said I wanted to run away.
That's true. I wanted to run away.
From me.
From you.
I asked who it was. It was me. And it was me. And it was me again.
I asked why I kept losing my memories. They said it was because of my personality. I see. It was my fault in the end.
I wanted someone to notice, but no one noticed. No one met me, so of course they don't know I exist.
I asked why people live. Just. Just. People just live.
If I ask why people die, I guess they'd say they were tired.
I suffered and I worried. I never learned how to turn my pain into happiness.
Pain is just pain.
They told me not to be like that.
Why? I can't even end things the way I want?
They told me to figure out why I was hurting.
I know very well why. I'm hurting because of me. It's all my fault and because I'm bad.
Doctor, is this what you wanted to hear?
No, I didn't do anything wrong.
When the doctor blamed my personality with a quiet voice, I thought it was so easy to be a doctor.
It's amazing how much I'm hurting. People who are hurting more live well. People weaker than me live well. I guess not. Out of everyone alive, there's no one hurting more than I am and there's no one weaker than I am.
But they said I should live.
I asked why so many times, but it's not for me. It's for you.
I wanted to be for me.
Don't say things that don't make sense.
Figure out why I'm hurting? I told you why. Why I was hurting. Is it not okay to be hurting this much because of that? Do I need a more dramatic detail? I need more of a story?
I told you why. Were you not listening? Things I can win over don't end in scars.
It wasn't my place to clash with the world.
It wasn't my life to be known to the world.
They said that was why I was hurting more. Because I had clashed with the world, because I was known to the world. Why did I choose this? That's funny.
It's a miracle I lasted this far.
What more can I say? Just tell me I worked hard.
That it was good of me to come this far. That I worked hard.
Even if you can't smile as you let me go, please don't blame me.
I worked hard.
I really did work hard.
Goodbye.



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Contoh surat perpisahan sebelum bunuh diri.

Melatih Pundit dengan Fantasy Manager (bagian 1)

Jadi pundit footbal dadakan bisa dilatih dengan Fantasy Premier League

Saya berharap Mo Salah cetak banyak gol, pun dengan assist. Tak peduli dengan tim lawan, tapi kalau bisa sih Liverpool kalah, maklum saya fans karbitan United sejak era class of 92. Kemenangan Liverpool akan mengkudeta MU dari runner up klasemen sementara. Mo Salah cetak banyak gol tapi Liverpool kalah? Sungguh paradox yang menggelikan. Tapi bisa saja, bukan? Contohlah Salah cetak trigol, tapi Liverpool kalah 3-4. Nda papa, toh pekan ini saya cuma memakai jasa satu pemain Liverpool, only Mo Salah. Dicetakin 4 gol pun tim saya tak mengapa, tak ada bek bahkan kiper Liverpool. Cetak 3 gol berarti tambahan 18 poin bagi tim saya. Apalagi Mo Salah jadi kapten, poin ganda jadi 36, sangat luar biasa mengingat poin rata-rata tim saya hanya berkisar 40 per pekan. Jika pun ke 10 pemain lain menyumbang 2 poin, jadilah total poin pekan ini jadi 56. Sayang, hingga peluit panjang skor tetap 4-1 untuk Liverpool, mengalahkan West Ham United yang telah saya buang strikernya jauh hari, Chicarito. Jadilah untuk sementara MU ditikung Liverpool, berjarak 1 poin. Namun mengingat besok lawan MU adalah Chelsea, berat juga sih. Kalau kalah (lagi) bisa-bisa ditikung lagi sama Tottenham Hotspurs. Berkat 1 gol dan 1 asssist Mo Salah, saya dapat tambahan 6+5 poin dikali 2 (Salah jadi kapten) = 22 poin.



Bermain game online Fantasy Premier League memang saya jabanin sekitar 2 musim terakhir. Selain Fantasy Premier League (FPL) yang resmi, saya mainkan Goal Fantasy Football (GFF) juga, 2 tim pula. Saya jadi rajin apdet Premier League (PL, Liga Inggris) mengutak-atik pemain tiap pekannya. Hitung-hitung mengasah kemampuan analisis bola.
Permainan GFF cukup seru. Aturannya sederhana, di awal musim pemain (kita) dituntut membentuk tim dengan alokasi "duit" 75 poin. Dari 75 poin itu kita membeli 11 pemain. Jangan harap kita bisa membeli semua pemain terbaik di posisinya. Paling banter di tiap posisi (kiper, bek, gelandang, dan striker) hanya ada 1 pemain yang baik dan sisanya adalah pemain "menengah kebawah". Asumsinya, pemain bagus berharga 7 poin keatas bahkan ada yang 9 poin (seperti Salah ini, atau Harry Kane). 4 kali 7 = 28 poin. Sisanya 47 poin dibagi untuk 7 pemain. Menggalaukan, bukan?

Lanjut sedikit tentang raihan poin pemain.

1.  Setiap pemain yang bermain minimal 45 menit mendapat poin 2. Cadangan yang bermain di akhir babak dapat 1 poin
2. Setiap cleansheet, kiper dan bek mendapat poin 7
3. Setiap assist berharga 5 poin
4. Setiap gol berharga 6 poin
5. Setiap kebobolan, kiper dan bek dikurangi 1 poin
6. Setiap gagal cetak pinalti dikurangi 2 poin
7. Kapten double poin (dikalikan 2)

Poin sementara saya untuk Sabtu ini adalah 24 poin. Disumbangkan oleh Jamie Vardy (2 poin) dan Mo Salah (22 poin). Kebanyakan pemain lain klubnya baru main minggu besok. Harap bersabar. Setiap pekan akan ada 1 pertandingan, manfaatkan untuk menyusun pemain yang tepat. Ada fasilitas transfer untuk mengganti pemain-pemain yang buruk (atau sedang sial). Sekian dulu, nantilah saya posting tips trik bermain FPL/ GFF biar banyak dapat poin. #GGMU

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1. Open pre order kaos t-shirt nya, bukan pelakornya.
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Boys Don't Cry

I would say I'm sorry
If I thought that it would change your mind
But I know that this time
I have said too much, been too unkind

I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'Cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

I would break down at your feet
And beg forgiveness, plead with you
But I know that it's too late
And now there's nothing I can do

So I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'Cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

I would tell you that I loved you
If I thought that you would stay
But I know that it's no use
That you've already gone away

Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more, more, more

Now I would do most anything
To get you back by my side
But I just keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'Cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
Boys don't cry